I think talking this through with a counselor or therapist would be a good idea. Sometimes just having an objective person to talk things through with can help to sort things out. I often have difficulty sleeping at night. When I do I walk slowly around-&-around our dark & quiet home for an hour or two. (Sort-of a walking meditation, if you will.) It has occurred to me, in the past, to go for a walk outside. But I don't do it. Chances are it would be safe enough. But the thought just feels uncomfortable.

I see this is your first post here on PC. So... to PsychCentral… from the Skeezyks! May the time you spend here be of benefit.

PsychCentral is a great place to get information as well as support for mental health issues. The more you post, & reply to other members’ posts, the more a part of the community you will become. Plus there are social groups you can join & chat rooms where you’ll be able to connect with other PC members in real time (once your first 5 posts have been reviewed & approved.) Lots of great stuff! So please keep posting!