So I have realised recovery from a narcissist who has harmed you and your life isn't straightforward.I have learnt about narcissistic rage,which is what the narcissist feels for you after you cut them out of your life.They want revenge and if you have something they still want they will do whatever it takes to get it.Hence they will find ways to make you let them back in and will harass and stalk you.

All of which my narcissistic sister has done,manipulating me into talking to her over my mum's cancer and breaking into my house and gaslighting me.She is more or less stalking me and I realised mum was telling her everything about my life that I was sharing with her.So my sister was still getting supply one way or another what I don't give willingly she takes.

So it is a process, a learning one ,that takes time to block the narcissist out of your range completely so she can't get to me again.It is hard cos I still see my mum and niece both of whom are in contact with her regularly.

After the latest incident of suspecting she got into my house again,I blamed myself for not locking the inside patio door lock.But I am not to blame for her actions.

The anger almost demolished me I couldn't handle it and it became depression turned in on myself quite quickly.I was beating myself up and being self destructive on an emotional level.

Now I am getting resources together to handle this and turn the situation around.

Tomorrow I will ring the domestic violence support people that helped me last time.
And I have found this book which seems very useful.One of the factors it points out is how the narcissist uses the emotional hook to hypnotise us into empathy with them,whereas they have no empathy and deliberately use our empathy in their favour.We need to disengage from them emotionally and not respond with empathy to their position.We need to maintain non emotional, head not heart responses to them.They are dangerous to us,we must always respond from that very true basis.Keep them at a distance,don't let them in,don't give them information about you,or your life.

They are like a dangerous criminal you don't take chances with them.They are not the persona they presented to you,however long you have known them or think you have,the persona they present is a made up image.Any loved they showed you was faked.The real person,is nasty,selfish,violent and ugly beyond belief and would go as far as to kill you to satisfy their anger or get something they want from you.

So this is the book I hope will help me.It is so scary to know someone who wants you dead whom you have cut out of your life hasn't given up trying to hurt you and still wants to kill you.So I am hoping this book can help.As I hope the domestic violence people will and the CCTV that I will have installed as soon as I can afford it.

I am sharing this book with you I hope it is helpful to others in the same predicament trying to get a narcissist out of their life.

https://www.amazon.co.uk/Becoming-Na...+shahita+arabi