..And not sure where to start explaining.
I am 29, married and diagnosed with bipolar disorder type 2. In addition i have a very light case of CP.

My physical disability is mild, i am able to hide it from most people. But it causes frustration and a fair amount of pain. In addition the CP has caused low working memory and concentration difficulties.

My mood swings can also be hidden from most people (not family). Sometimes i wonder if i even "qualify" to be diagnosed as bipolar. In my depressive periods i am still able to maintain a reasonably healthy lifestyle, and i have never been close to living out my suicide fantasies. In my manic periods i pretty much always end up with a tendinitis, some broken items and an almost finished awesome new project. But i very rarely loose control if front of people, not more then the average joe anyway.

I am the only person in my closest family that do not have at least a Phd. It is expected that i should be able to do something with my life. My relatively mild CP and BP symptoms, shouldn't be enough to render me useless

The problem is that i have failed at absolutely everything i have tried so far. There are some basic university classes that i just cannot pass, no matter how great my dedication and motivation was. So that has locked me out of all technical educations. My reading endurance is low, which makes more theoretical educations difficult. I have tried a large variety of manual labor, but i don't last very long, and i have gotten some chronic damages by trying to hard.

I am sorry, but i will have to continue tomorrow. I'm exhausted. To sum up my question temporarily. Should i keep trying, in which case what should i aim for. Or is it ok to accept the disability benefits.