and... i worry some that this might be about me being mad with what his secretary said to me. i mean... i guess it is fairly inevitable that he is going to be pissed with her for having said that to me. he might feel like SHE screwed him out of all that money...

and i was really upset that she said that to me :-( but... i don't think i want to punish her. i don't think that not sending off the forms was about that.

maybe not sending off the forms was about my usual procrastination. i often don't claim for prescriptions because i can't be bothered.

i don't know. i don't know what happened. maybe i should just send off the frigging forms already. i'm just really scared. how much money will i be claiming? thousands. i don't expect 20% of specialist visits is going to be about once or even twice a week therapy... once or twice a year, sure, but once or twice a week for a year? i don't think so :-(

i'm scared that they will phone me up and start hassling me. i'm scared that they will launch an inquiry into what the frig we have been doing all this time. i'm scared that they will try and discredit the therapy that we have been having saying that it is a crock and that isn't what he was trained to do so it isn't covered by his speciality :-( (he does of course charge more than clinical psychologists and the up to $500 for therapy reimbursement on the more expensive plan is (explicitly) for REGISTERED CLINICAL PSYCHOLOGISTS).