I am thinking of you, I have had this awful disease for so long so I know where you are coming from, I don't post a lot, I come here everyday and read and lurk but I have read many of yours, please do what you need for your brother and fiancée and go ip. I have been up so many times I can't remember how many times but it has helped me get back on track I am thinking of you today and praying for relief for you, Lela