so i saw my T today and we talked a lot about how i have been feeling recently and DBT and the possibility of needing to go to the hospital. T asked if i thought i needed to go to the hospital i said i didnt know but in the end we both agreed that there wasnt much the hospital could do other than give me meds to sleep and i am already sleeping too much anyway. there are not groups or therapy at the hospital where i live so it is basically just holding cells so stop you from harming yourself but no actually therapy. so in the end we agreed to try and avoid that so that i can keep doing DBT as that is more helpful. i still dont know if i can commit to doing DBT as in i dont know if i can keep myself alive long enough but i am trying. tomorrow i will see my new mental health worker so we will see what they say.