Hey Septmber Morn, I can relate to what you wrote. I think lots of parents don't really know what all should be said and done with their children. We get the phyical care, with clothing and food, but the nurturing part falls to the wayside as we grow out of the baby stage. In my case I have come to understand that my crazy grandmother ruined any chance of a bond between my parents and I by the abuse and lies she piled on me. From age two to nine, I was told how no one really wanted me and I became unsure and untrusting of everyone. To this day I am still afraid to really trust anyone. And at 54, I still want my mommy. Saying it makes me cry too, and I am not sure if I will ever be put back together again. But I am here now and being here at PC, I feel safer somehow. And I count you as one of my on-line friends. Thank you for sharing your sadness and pain, and your courage.