My husband left me last September after 41 years of marriage and raising 2 children. The first 2-3 months I didn't think I would make it; like rolling in a wave in the Pacific Ocean and not knowing if my feet would touch ground ever again. Lost in grief and huge emotional pain ( triggered early attachment issues massively). He has gone no contact. Only contact is with each other's lawyers.

Reached out for support from family and friends. The legal divorce process is also emotional and requires constant vigilance to ensure my financial future is at least reasonable. My former husband is an attorney and litigator so that is an issue.

Although still sad at times, something just clicked several months ago, and I realized this is real, it has to be dealt with, and he will never come back. I am 63 years old and will do everything I can to have a happy, joyous life, nourishing the loving relationships I have. I guess my biggest lesson learned is that I want everyone in my life to experience my love and caring, and to live my remaining years with dignity and integrity. I want my adult children to see their mother as a wonderful human being, one who took the blows and rose from the ashes to love life even more. A legacy of loving relationships. Love and peace to all of you❤️❤️