thats how i feel... i mean i just had an experience that proves i do have alters... and i still feel like no, its just normal... but they used to tell me i was normal over and over when i would ask questions to other people.. they say "you just think too much, you're normal, you're fine"

now i think im gonna be in trouble because i had to talk to some people... i hope i handled it well... im only one at home so i answered the door but i wasn't thinking... it scared me, now im scared

ugh... getting off course..
i hear that voice too that says yes you have parts in a simple way, but i have an angry one that is equally persuasive... so its like a clash of thoughts... yes no yes no yes no, is the most simple way to say it...

im afraid of blacking out in therapy and hurting the therapist... i would never do that but im afraid that part of me that has taken over before and acted out like that will...
i dunno what to do about it...

if i could be assured that i wont hurt anyone then i would feel alot better...