My appointment with my counselor was last night, and we talked about me being angry. Not angry at him, but about what is happening. It was good.

I usually come home and have a ton to write and sort out in my journal.

It's not there now. It's eerily quiet. It's like they are waiting to see what's going to happen.

No one feels safe going there to the scary new place, but they trust him. They are sad and feel they abandonment. I don't know how to reassure them that it's going to be ok. It doesn't feel that way to "me" so that's pretty hard to do.

Each one of them initially came forward with questions of trusting him. We worked through it and I could feel the ease inside when trust was offered from each part. First to me and then to him, in hearing them. Validating them.

It was shared that I/we didn't want to work with anyone else and couldn't imagine it. Then it was silent.

Compliance even first saw him as a threat. It was pretty intense, but trust was gained. That part feels to be the quietest and most stand offish. There is a feeling that compliance feels that we should just make the trip, suck it up. Do it. It feels like it's not being strong enough. Compliance is afraid of the scary place too.

It can't and it won't. It's not safe.

Compliance is stand offish because it feels it knows best right now. It's always complied, and maybe the little one's don't understand and are afraid that a trusted one will go away because compliance won't comply now.

Compliance is torn. Does it comply and put the others at risk, or does it stand the ground at the danger of not keeping the others ok?

Compliance feels it's in a no win situation.