I do have a therapist and a psychiatrist , I go through IU and he's one of the best in America .., I called twice today and he's always traveling so he has a prodigy under him and nobody has called me back ... omg I did just stop smoking yesterday, not self caring at all , I usually look pretty good , I now look like the opposite of a Barbie , my husband started working nights this week and usually when I feel ya know off balance at night I cuddle next to him which only started about 4 months ago ... diet hahahah I just stopped binging and purging ... I fee out of control and my friend Karl who lives in California who is cheating on his wife for 2 years pretty much wanted me to text the guy or something so I can be in his position so my dumb *** text him and now here it goes and me and my husband have been doing better since he came out and told me and his family he had been making me miserable on purpose for the last 2 years because I'm a free spirit and I'm pretty and then he came out and told me he has a porn addiction since he was 12 and I asked him why did you not tell me before we got married , he said because you would not have married me and I would not have honestly because I grew up in foster homes and group homes and have been touched by the men and I hate nudity, not with a person one on one in real life but I'm very sensual , I don't like that stuff , and he knew that ... here is a pic of me so we are not strangers lolIMG_1349.jpg