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Originally Posted by cptaptlove
In October my relationship with my husband ended. He's was asked to leave my parents home where we lived after losing everything, even though he makes extremely good money and always have. I had no idea who he really was or what he was truly capable of until I was 2 kids and 8 year in. I spent the last 10 years thinking it can't get any worse but it just kept getting worse. Now I'm feeling totally lost and damaged. He just gets to walk away like I never existed or mattered and I'm a mess. He moved in with his father. My kid's are teenagers and seem to want to be with him more. I've sheltered them from so much including a cross dressing fetish. Is there anyone else out there? I just want to know I'm not alone. I don't know how many people have really experienced and true narcissistic sociopath but I definitely have.
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Oh my goodness, 18 years - that is a lifetime together!
I normally don't like talking about this, my ex-husband destroyed my life for good: after so many physical and emotional injuries for the span of five years, I now live with PTSD and nerve damage. It's been about six years that I ran away from him before he could just kill me, and it has been one of the hardest things I had to do. To heal, to rebuild my life, to make sense out of so much pain - it almost feels like there isn't any of it, not even peace of mind.
He was diagnosed as a sociopath in jail, and while I got to explore therapy for four years trying to heal, my psychiatrist was convinced he was a narcissist as well. A violent one. This is a conversation I can't have with anyone, it is like people don't really seem to understand domestic violence, let alone how incredibly traumatizing it can be to survive a sociopath narcissist.
Reading your post was touching. I truly wish there was something I could say to you to alleviate some of the pain, but nothing I can say would. I just wanted to let you know that, you are an incredibly person for surviving all those years and most important of all - you are not alone.