They may have caused you problems, but now they are your problems to fix. Life is unfair that way and the best thing you can do is accept it. That this is YOUR problem. If you had thought and acted in a different way, you had been out of that household ages ago. I think you need to analyze the problem, maybe with a counselor, WHY you are still in that situation.

A lot of things can be overcome. You just need to shine some light on them. You are an adult and you should live an adult, independent life. You should be able to watch TV and have a glass of wine.

Living in a crappy house in a crappy area is far better than living as a child as an adult. I think you spend too much time daydreaming how unrealistic things would fix this, like your parents' death, or money. There isn't a totally crappy life or a totally fabulous life. Real life is often somewhere inbetween. And there is no reason why you cannot have that kind of inbetween life.

Whatever things you do to make grand dreams come through, will only make you sink further. Set realistic goals.

Me, I would NEVER allow anyone to treat me like that. I would not turn to aggression but I would be forceful. I would not accept any house rules that were abusive, not even slightly so. I would rather live in a shelter than with abusive parents.

Yes, of course there are obstacles or you would be gone from there already. It is time to identify them and overcome them. It might take some time but it will be worth it.

If you want to and feel safe enough to, you can talk about the obstacles here.