Thanks ladies!! I had a very bad day yesterday. Running on little to no sleep after my babies were up all night, but feeling much better today.
I have decided to just stop making the effort with them, it does go against my own personal values as I believe we should be kind and thoughtful no matter what.. but stopping making the effort and gradually removing them from my life is probably going to help with the rejection I feel on a daily basis.
I feel much more positive after a good night's sleep. I find I become really low and anxious when im tired.
Im going to concentrate on finding a new social circle, since I moved I really don't have anyone and it makes it hard with 2 young children.
Im going to work on it. Thanks again im glad to be able to come here and have people listen. It is greatly appreciated.