Tired and conflicted today. made it out to see p-nurse and it went fine. in the waiting room i saw a mom with a very sick daughter in a wheelchair. she was friendly and upbeat in spite of everything they must go through and i just kind of felt scummy for feeling so messed up just because i do. on the way home fantasized about becoming more "normal" but that never works out for me. came on here to find some solace.