You are not a harbinger of death. But I have felt the same way. Over a decade I lost my parents, all aunts and uncles, a cousin, several friends, and many pets. Last winter 5 of my 10 pets died, this winter my sister, a friend, and my cousin died. October, November, December. I don't think I will ever be the same person I was before all of the losses. I do have PTSD from all of it.

Unfortunately, the more people and animals we have in our lives, the more losses we will experience. My heart goes out to you.