Old enemy is back in town
makes me curl up and frown
holding my pain, need to let go...
everythign around is dizzy and slow.
guilty seeps from every pore
can't deal with this any more
lock me up, throw away the key
no good anyway so noone will see.
Stomach tight like a coiled snake
like this many days when I wake
should get out and walk today
but nervous as hell cant get away....
Wish I worked right now but couldn't
know I should but know I wouldn't
too many scary things for me
I'm in my own prison, hard to be free.
Living half a life right now
no energy left to lift my brow.
crawling at a snails pace
to try and live in the human race......

Want to crawl in a hole and rot
If everyone'd leave me and forgot
the miserable wretch who works this mind
I could just go and leave the world behind.
Am I not trying hard enough to cope?
I feel as though I've lost all hope
can't function, lethargic, tired of all
even simple tasks are an order too tall.....

jin