Hi! Thank you so much for replying

I know and understand the consequences that are unfavourable here and I really don't mind them. My main problem would, again, be my family. I've tried to seek help for a very long time, however, unfortunately the furthest I went was the school councillor considering how my family is quite abusive (not physically anymore, mentally and emotionally). They know about my situation, they knew about my suicidal thoughts they just made fun of me, both my parents and my younger brother ;^^
The old school councillor went back to the US and I would not seek a new one again because I just feel like it's useless as it's my final school year

I'll try to go along with the rest step by step. Again, thank you!!