I really don't know which forum I'm supposed to put this in.

I keep thinking, If only......

If only things had been different I could have been 'someone' by now.

If I hadn't have been through all that crap as a child I could of been something great.

I could have gone to university and become a doctor, I could have been something good.

As it is, I'm 39, 6 yrs of therapy- probably forever. I'm not able to work full time. I have so many problems I have to live with. And I hide it all as best I can.

So I should be grateful I am alive, I have a lot more than some people but......I can't help thinking if only....