Thank you all for your responses. At the time I posted this, I was afraid the dreams would become every night and bothersome to me, and/or some kind of obsession or denial. I am glad to say that I have had the dream twice in the past 2 weeks and I can handle that.
Eyes of Blue, I agree that the being alive/insurance thing was my mind trying to sort things out. I had been still in shock I think, because his death did not seem real. So my mind was sort of refusing to believe he was gone, but also wanted to get on living my own life now. Does that make sense?
I want to remember him as my Daddy, not as an abuser. I think I can do that.
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