Hi guys. Just currently in a state that ive been to before but ive dissociated from very quickly. I feel like im starting to fall down a hole and theres nothing/noone in my life that can bring me back or save me right at this moment. I feel like i need something or everything but i cant have what i need. I do have a sense of what I want though but Im finding it hard to put into words. Glad to have this forum to just put something somewhere and hope it stays real and I dont divide myself up into little chunks of consciousness.

Update: I need a rock to hold onto, something thats so real and strong that itll stop me falling. Guess this comes from early childhood and my mother and the person she is. I hope its ok that i put this here