Hi TreeMan. I am sorry you seem to feel you are getting out of control, like you are having racing thoughts, and cannot edit what you say. I have seen these kinds of symptoms in a friend who has bouts of mania periodically, so I know it is not easy to cope with.

One of the way my friend thinks when they get like that that they are perfectly okay and do not need any treatment or meds. They are not lying, they just cannot see what is happening as an outside observer can. The sooner we get them in treatment the better the outcome for them.

So you may find these articles of interest.
https://psychcentral.com/disorders/manic-episode/

https://psychcentral.com/disorders/h...sode-symptoms/

https://psychcentral.com/quizzes/maniaquiz.htm