I feel that, so much right now.

I guess I scared the crap out of my friend the other day. It sucks.

As to the original question; I have to be alone and not have too much going on. Then I just stay in my room, write like crazy (I'm talking I write and compose full songs and finish the process with at least three of them) and I also end up blasting music and drinking. My fiance comes home and keeps me focused on other things until he convinces me to take some meds and then I'm knocked unconscious by them. I think I scare him sometimes, hell all of the time. Wish I didn't.