Hi Flutterby 11,
The goal is to get thru this crisis. First, you need to SURF the emotions and thoughts. This means to sit with them, resisting any urges to action. Yes, you are in tough spot and most all of us can relate to everything you are thinking and feeling, it's all ****** lol, but this will pass. If you haven't taken a shower yet, do it. It will ground you and take you out of your head for awhile. Then, try to sleep. Sleep often helps to reset our brain. If you are still in immediate crisis, then we all want you to march yourself back to the hospital and tell them you are definitely in danger of hurting yourself, suicidal, and plant yourself in the ER until they have a bed for you.