I think that some things are hard to hear in therapy. I understand that conflict when something is felt on multiple levels. When something similar happens with me, I feel frustrated and angry because I feel unheard, and I might feel that my experience is being diminished. It's so important to me to first, feel heard. My problem is that I allow the negative interpretation to have more importance. It's a way of continuing to criticise myself. It's probably a way of hanging on to what I know, because moving toward an idea that is unknown and unfamiliar feels unnatural and dangerous.

Anyway, that is my resistance, and even knowing it one minute I can forget it the next. So, then I start again, resenting my resistance. Anything to keep myself from being present and moving toward something that want to move toward. I told my T that I need her to be the resistance to my resistance.

Honor the anger, but don't let it get behind the wheel and drive. lol.