Thanks Echoes.
I left session early just now. Something is going on, but right now I can't face it.
I told T how what she said felt, and she said "that must be hard to hear" . What?!?!?!

I know when I'm in something because I go silent. I want T to find me. I told her I feel she's burnt out. Not taking me seriously.
T said (as I knew she would, because I know somethings going on) this is the work. This feeling you want more from me, feeling unheard.
I knew I could overlay (dreaded transference) my relationship with my mother into all what is going on.
But I did look at T and say. But it's you that said those words, it's with you I felt invalidated.
. With that I told her being worth her is to painful right now. I need to leave. I did.

But, I could have spoke those words to my mother many years ago. Sigh.

But right now..... It's anger and hurt.