Day 4 without Abilify. It was the last AP I've been taking as I had already -under doctor supervision, unlike with the Abilify- lowered it (Seroquel) down to just a sleep med. I've had more and more energy each day, but so far, not in a pathological way. If this continues to go well, then I hope to be able to stop it for the foreseeable future. As far as meds go, the less the better, I think.

I'm still taking Lamictal, always been my friend, for some 12 years now.

I saw a photo essay about dogs in a shelter. The last photo was of a wailing woman giving her dog over to be put down. Triggered me terribly as my dear dear cat has a pancreatic tumor and last I talked to the vet about this, she said she only had a few months to live. I think she's doing well, is happy and doesn't look uncomfortable. But the specter of death hurts so bad. She is everything to me. I need to get that image out of my mind. I don't want to fall into depression again, I've just been climbing out of it.