Hello. I'm not good with putting my thoughts into sentences but I kind of want to discuss somethin.
A thing that has been happening to me several times in my life is that I tell someone some stuff about my childhood and immediately they go "Those things aren't good. You are clearly traumatised". Every time this happens I feel confusion because, while I wouldn't call my childhood great, I can't quite understand whether my experiences were traumatic or not. And furthermore, whether this matters.
The last time a situation like this happened was with my therapist. She wanted me to do something and I had a really bad reaction to it and refused. I ended up recalling a scene from my childhood to her. She brought it up again later and she apoligised for having pushed me and said that she had not been aware how "bad" things had been and how "deep" they had gone.
She asked me to consider doing trauma therapy.
How do I figure out whether I need that?
My therapist said that it does not matter whether I think these experiences had an impact on me or not and that she thinks I could still benefit from this kind of therapy. At the same time I wonder if it would really be wise to dig up things that I am rarely thinking about anymore and that I have put in the past.
I don't know how to figure this out.