I'd like to ask if other members here also have or had the problem of not being able to experience deep emotion.
I am struggling with this and it makes my life rather dull and I often find it exhausting having to analyse every situation because my feelings don't tell me anything. I can use logic to determine what I should most likely be feeling in certain situations but the actual emotion is not there.
I occasionally seem to show emotions though, which is confusing to me, because I don't feel anything.
It perplexed me when I start to cry during therapy and then my therapist asks me what is making me sad. Nothing is making me sad. I am not sad. I am just crying. My brain seems to think crying is the logical response to certain things, so my body reacts with leaking fluids through my eyes.
I have tried a few times to discuss this with people but they didn't understand. They all said "of course you have emotions! You laugh, you cry, you have opinions. That wouldn't be the case if you didn't have emotions".
But I don't feel any emotions. I recognise them in other people but I can't experience them and it's perplexing.
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