I'm a support group rookie so thanks in advance for helping me along through this process. I feel like there isn't anyone to talk to and those I do talk to (about DH's depression) aren't very helpful, just judgmental. I stumbled onto the idea (through prayer) that there might be a support group out there for people like me and lo and behold, there is! Thank you again, to whoever keeps this going. It is so appreciated!!!

Anyway, I'm not even sure where to start. I feel angry. I feel betrayed. I feel resentful. I feel guilty for feeling this way. I have five children (and one on the way) that don't understand their father's behavior and I'm not sure what to say to them. I'm not sure how to help them. I want them to grow up feeling empowered not feeling like they're the victim and I don't know how to help them obtain these tools. I am not sure how to tell my friends that the occasional, "I won't" or "I can't" attitude they have about issues in their own lives is hard for me to hear because I hear it all the time from DH. I'm not even sure I need to tell them, I just know it isn't good for me to hear it. I'm learning how to become strong emotionally, but that doesn't mean I am strong yet.

Anyway, like I said, I just needed to talk and this was just a place to start. I've never been able to open up like this before.