Okay well my adoptive mother has been like this ever since i can remember and its been getting worse now that my blood brother has been gone all these years so she cant make his life hell because obviously he isnt here. And i know some of you who've read my previous posts might be getting sick of this topic. So im sorry about that!
Anyways to make it quick her attitute towards me will be fake, annoyed, and completely oblivious to the fact i even exist. But then very occasionally she will smile at me and/or say something nice. I never can really figure out what i do during those times that makes it seem like she hates me. And she also ruins my relationship with other people. This one really hurts. Like my sister who used to be so close to me, and my brother who is gone (and mainly because of her cant have any contact with). She told lies about me and says hurtful things about me to people such as her mom/my grandmother! She tries to keep my nephew away from me and glares at me like she wants to kill me whenever im around him. I asked her why and she simply says she doesnt trust me. Now i cant really be myself around him or even show i care about him because of what shes done which is really sad... My brother was the one who messed things up between them, so i guess she has to take it out on me. Im really tired of this… And im really tired of feeling like a bad person when im around her. I just wish she could open her eyes some and let go of whatever it is shes holding on too… jealousy, anger, hurt… I dont know!