Eskielover- I kinda have some PTSD issues I haven't worked through, so if I said "sleeping together" I mean it in the most literal sense - platonic bed sharing. Sex is one of those things I've always had a problem with... I feel like I've tried everything (except for ecstasy) but the panic attacks just aren't worth it anymore. In his defense, he was very patient and didn't push me to do anything physical (even kissing) unless I was comfortable with it. I'm not easy to be with

As far as emotional maturity and co-dependence, I know exactly what you mean! My mother is the child of a former violent alcoholic (apparently Grandpa once took the family hostage at gunpoint on Christmas 40-something year ago) and her codependent mom. My dad is a child of divorce, who's often targeted by certain siblings cause their mom (my grandma, never met her) favored my dad and also used her "least favorite" son as an alibi when she'd go have affairs with random guys. So... I think I too just seem to be magnetically drawn to dysfunction. At least now I'm starting to see the red flags...