I hope I have not gotten the wrong end of the stick as I found your post hard to read with the random placement of full stops.

Like Mr Stranger says, limitations, we all have them, its best to find out what exactly yours are, where you can improve and what your options are within them. Independence is an awesome goal, but my independence might not look like my friend's, and vice versa.

I suggest you find what you are good at, practice what you are bad at, and in time you'll see where you fit on the grid.

Don't beat yourself up, Rome wasn't built in a day.