It just seems like you long to reach out to people and be loved back. It can be awkward to express how great this need is to our Hs and there can be moments when they can fulfil the ache; yes, it is nice to have sex when you feel this way but these moments certainly do not happen as often as we might like. I don't know what happened last night; if he was just having a bad day but really does loves you. You have bad days too. Lately, when I am feeling badly, sincere prayer has helped sooth me. Sometimes I just pray that I can accept the people in my life as they are and be content with the things I already have. Wanting what I do not have has been a sure ticket to misery for me. <<hugs>>
PS You are a very caring person, you do send these vibes out in the things you write here so it likely shows in your fb postings as well. So what we post really does matter (but not as much as your relationship with H and sons--I understand that).