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Originally Posted by DadFMF
So she text a long rant last night after she found out her sister is going n the hospital...She went told me that she's lonely, but would rather be lonely than miserable. She said that she was independent and free spirited and I wasn't. She said she found happiness again, to be silly, free without having to worry to be judged. I then asked her if she still wanted to be married to me and she said "I Love You, but I can longer be married to you. Don't be angry, I hope you find a docile woman"
I screenshotted this and sent it to her mother, as to where I been getting spiritual guidance. She said it seems like her daughter is hurting soooo bad from her own personal demons. She "reiterated to me that her daughter loves me cause she said it numerous times. She also stated that when she found out sister was in the hospital, I was the first person she thought about...I know I'm way behind the power curve. As I stated in my previous posts, she became independent and free while I was gone. She said she hit euphoria that she hasn't seen in years which reall hurt my feelings. I never knew she was that unhappy with me...I just wished I could of addressed those issues earlier in our marriage. I don't know what to do now. I offered to be there for her while her sister was in the hospital (Pregnancy issues ", she stated " My true friends have my back" and "No thank you". My question is, why did she even text me in the first place to let me know all of this if she did care about me? In her rant, she told me all the things that she likes doing now that we had never done before nor did I even know she took interest in like shooting ranges..I just don't know what to think right now at this moment...I'm sad, hurt and wish I had a chance to show her that I love her. I don't want to just be a coparent, I want to be her husband.
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DadFMF - you are walking on thin ice if you don't detach.
>> My question is, why did she even text me in the first place to let me know all of this if she did care about me?<<
She's confused. 
There may also experience internal raging & you
may her guy to blame ...
You wife may love you on some level, or maybe not!
This emotional environment is NOT conducive to acquiring any accurate picture of the situation. In any event,
love is expressed through authentic action not just words
regardless of what her mother says. She may say this to her mother but her words to you in bold were anything but loving. They were meant to be hurtful. Her actions also speak
Re
>>the things she's doing 'now' that she did not do with you<<. That's nit-picking - She's looking for excuses
to justify her actions including her decision to not be with you. The mind can devise really good ways to deal with guilt
vilifying the spouse may be next ...
>>i love you but no longer want to be married you<< 
Whoa!! This is a 'common statement' with those who are
going through a crisis.
IF she is undergoing a crisis, you cannot win - this one is ugly & needs to 'run its course'.
We know you love her. You are not an 'on-off switch'. However, if she is so different from how she was before, then you are not dealing with the
same person. Something happened. She's undergoing change & her 'coping mechanisms are on steroids & screaming' at her
(she's trying to get happy, to solve whatever issues have been internally & subconsciously gnawing away at her. these are likely to be issues that were present long before you met)
Someone is either in a healthy relationship or not. This is not healthy. Yes you love her because you are not going through
'the temp. insanity mode thing' 
where you can change in a beat. It will be sad, very sad but please take care of you.
Keep some distance between yourself & her. You may be reminding her that what she's done is (subconsciously) wrong. She won't like you for it. Defences will go up! Attack mode on & you will quickly hear more unkind words IF she is in crisis.
'Subconscious' guilt & shame is hard on a crisis person - I experienced this first hand.
Don't fall for the word "love" -
look at the actions. She isn't with you, is she? Falling for these words from mother in law will only hurt & give you false hope. There is no logic within an illogical- in flux state. Time will reveal all - in your favour ... or not.
DadFMF, I am sorry if some messages come across as negative.
That is NOT the intent. I can speak only for myself.
I hoped so much when my own ordeal began.
I desperately held on looked for 'signs of love, where there was none.
I hurt myself. My husband simply needed to give
whatever (???) its own natural expression.
It had to come out in its own time & in its own way. And nothing I did made any difference.
Of course we all wish for positive outcome, but it's not happening right
NOW, & while she goes through what she has to, you need to be mindful to protect yourself as well.
I am glad that finances, legal matters, kids matters, are in order for you
Your emotions & feelings are next.
Please take care of yourself.