Hi miss wanderlust: I just replied to your introductory post as well. I really think you need to be evaluated by a psychologist & /or psychiatrist. Since you're still so young I would presume this is something your parent(s) will need to help you with.

Realistically, there's no way for any of us, here on PC, to really tell you what's going on with you. Yes, much of this does sound similar to schizophrenia. But that that doesn't make it so. High levels of anxiety can also have a lot of dramatic effects on a person particularly someone as young as yourself. Only skilled mental health professionals are going to be in a position to help you figure out what's really going on & what to do about it.

I know you wrote you've developed a slight emotional attachment to your delusions. And I don't think that's unusual. But it is something you'll need to avoid keeping you from seeking the help you need. So please do reach out for the help you need. People are not committed nowadays as a result of having schizophrenia... or any other mental illness for that matter... unless they are a danger to themselves or others. I wish you well. (Please keep posting here on PC too!)