Your H knows you go through stuff and he still wants to be with you. I am sure that you are just worth the trouble from his point of view. Sometimes you just have to take life one day at a time. And the attitude that you are who you are is quite appropriate.

I am truly grateful that H stayed with me the year I attempted and beyond. It was beyond awful what I did and I felt like he treated me better than I truly deserved to be treated. Maybe we are both very lucky that are husbands are really good guys.