Hello DanielleBlacknBlue: I'm so sorry you have had to endure such awful circumstances. Reading your post brought tears to my eyes. I hope you are someplace safe. I know you feel you have no life without this man. But, from what you wrote, it sounds as though his throwing you out was the best thing that could have happened... both for you & for your baby. Are you familiar with the National Domestic Violence Hotline? 1 (800) 799-7233 ?

The National Domestic Violence Hotline | 24/7 Confidential Support

Perhaps they can be of some assistance.

I see this is your first post here on PC. So... to PsychCentral… from the Skeezyks! May the time you spend here be of benefit.

PsychCentral is a great place to get information as well as support for mental health issues. The more you post, & reply to other members’ posts, the more a part of the community you will become. Plus there are social groups you can join & chat rooms where you’ll be able to connect with other PC members in real time (once your first 5 posts have been reviewed & approved.) Lots of great stuff! So please keep posting!