i am not 100% sure i understand all the questions, but while i do sleep, it's not like i really sleep because dreams are so vivid and real that it feels like i'm still awake. i wake up exhausted because of the dreams being so busy since they usually involve either highly emotionally charged things or i spend a lot of time running from people, trying to help/save people, etc. and/or dissociated which affects me when i wake up at times and am still dissociated or the dreams emotionally affect me for a day too.

it is really difficult and a struggle to get a good sleep even without bad dreams. the other thing is waking up too much and not being able to get back to sleep/stay asleep.

i am trying to get off a med i've taken nightly for over a year. it has been okayish which is interesting...but my sleep isn't much better.