I don't want to change my mind, I don't want to let others help them help me, or help me help myself. Who are they to have power over life and people like me?

I'm always the weak one - every social circle, almost every relationship.
What will be in a marriage, if I'll even have that? Be submissive to a woman as my father was? Hell no. I seriously hate one-sided relationships.
I read allot about depressed husbands breaking up with their wives because of feelings of inferiority. When reading those stories, I understand them because I know how it feels! I know how it feels to be with someone who has it so good in life, yet no one is there to make you a better person, just either hate you, say you're wrong or love you for who you are, because for some people it's highly comforting to their hearts to have a loser as a loved one.