I love my doctor. It just started happening with him out of nowhere. It happens with boyfriends or ex boyfriends mostly.:... unfortunately I had been really wanting to get back with a boyfriend and all of a sudden he was in me! Then he went out but I was talking to him I think.
I don't talk to my ex so I decided to meet with him to apologize for things (my severe mental state and swings between mania and depression ended the relationship - he wouldn't stand by me - and he drank a lot to deal with stress). Anyway our meeting was good and I apologized and he said we are good and he had no bad feelings and he went to therapy as well for the drinking and is doing well. So we left on a good note and for like one day he wasn't inside me but then he came back! Weird thing is I moved across the country back to where he lives (I had moved away) and I hadn't told him but I told him I was in town. Didn't say I lived there I could have been visiting. He knew I had moved. Mind reading? He is in my body like I believe? He has my phone tracked and bugged? All three I think........
I have panic attack sometimes. I can't deal with all this. I want my privacy and can't have it and can't be in public and look others in the eyes because then they know my thoughts.
Sorry so long.
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Originally Posted by StarSeedPleiades
HI Crazygrl882, sounds like you're going through some struggles, sorry to hear that. I too think I know what you're experiencing, as i think I experience something similar, my affliction being with people who have recently passed and with demons. Celebrities invade my body after their death and start to see everything through my eyes and that's really irritating because some things I like to keep private, writings and such, I don't need them in my business. Demons do the same, then they mock me or divert my thoughts or inject weird, gruesome images to distract me or disturb me.
I have many theories of why I feel like these things happen. Whether they really do or not, I'm convinced they do, others say it's not possible, but I don't think anything in this world is ever as certain as people like to think.
Do you and your ex-husband talk? If so, are you guys on good terms or is it bumpy? I feel maybe a tension or stress could be causing this interpretation of him being inside of your body. Same with the doctor: do you trust this doctor? You said he's new, perhaps this is the way your brain experiences a type of nervousness around these two people, and maybe others. Just a thought--if the thought makes sense.
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