Thank you for your thought out and wise reply. I have had DBT but I was in my emotional mind and not able to think straight when you wrote this. It is difficult to engage the cognitive mind when emotional mind is in control.
I did use some DBT skills of distraction and selfsoothing to get to this point. Then I read the responses here and realized I need to pull more from DBT and I do need to stop fighting the storm bc I just succeed in adding to its destructive power when I fight it. I'm going to acknowledge the storm and instead of fighting it, I am going to make a plan to survive it and prepare for the reality of what is.
Radical acceptance is knowing it is what it is. Acceptance doesn't mean I approve of the storm. I just have to accept that I am NOT the cause of this storm. And it may blow àll around me but it is not my fault and I don't need to take responsibility for others decisions that caused the storm.
I'm also very sad for others who are closer to land fall of this storm. I'm angry about this storm bc it did not need to happen but some folks did bad things and created the storm. I can not make it go away. Those at land fall have more to endure than I in this storm. At least so far. Depends on which direction the winds blow. I'm going to be okay. Thank you all for the concern and advice.