I've always been a shy kid but since past 2 or 3 years, my classmates have been saying that I've stopped speaking and interacting with others. I don't have any friends and I don't even attempt to make any. Sometimes I try very hard to plan on making freinds or talking and successfully talk for a little while or so but then I feel like I'm being an unnecessary burden on them. I feel as if everyone is so much better than me and better off without me. I see posts on social networking sites about friends and relationships and I want that desperately but something inside me stops from even attempting. I then feel sad thinking why would anyone even like to be with me. I have no talents and I'm not good at anything. I don't even know how to start a conversation or maintain one. I avoid any kind of human interactions outside of my family. And I get hurt very, very easily. I'm not intelligent and not even good to look at. All of this and more have been so overwhelming that I had started to cut myself. It started out as me scratching my skin with nails then digging them in my skin and then I got a blade. It is like I'm a container which over the time gets filled and to release my contents to become light to not feel I cut. I take everything to heart. I know no one likes me but I feel so horrible and humiliated when they say anything about me. When someone laughs at anything I'm convinced that they are laughing at me. I am scared all the time that everyone is judging my appearance, every word I say, my every smile. I am scared of voicing my thoughts because I know if anyone laughed, I don't know what I'd do. So it's better this way, for me, to not talk to anyone. I just don't know anymore what else to do.