Anyone have a similar type of OCD as this?
I get latched on to things and won't let it rest for weeks or months at a time. I can literally look back on the past 6 months and see it 'chunked' into 5 or 6 separate 'things'.
First, I was looking for information on my dad for about 3 to 4 weeks. That's all I thought about, all I did, spent all my time on it. Lost sleep over it.
After that, I spent two weeks reading a book on mindfulness / meditation. I was reading the book, doing meditations, practicing mindfulness my whole day for about 2 weeks.
After that, I was on to politics / ideologies. I was looking in to different political views, how to be a politician, ideologies of world leaders. This lasted for about 2 weeks.
Then all the sudden I got back into exercising / losing weight / following an exercise program with big goals. At the same time I also go into learning to code websites / building websites for family / friends / businesses. This was about 4 weeks.
I research everything involved in these topics a good chunk of my day, or at least am thinking about it. Most days I'm exhausted... not from the typical 'day', but because a great chunk of my day is me researching online about these topics, asking questions about these topics, reading websites that coordinate with these topics etc etc.
I also get latched on to certain songs or artists. That's all I will listen to for weeks / months at a time. For weeks there were a set of 5-6 songs I would listen to on my way to work, and back home from work.
I've been wanting a new job because I'm burned out at my job... and want something else. But, any of my interests in getting a new job seem to be 'OCD'ish. For example... I was CERTAIN I was going to quit my job in the next few months and become a website designer. So, I was trying to learn SEVERAL coding languages REALLY fast. Get clients to build websites for cheap just for experience. Then, all the sudden... my interest just stopped. GONE. Really, overnight.
I feel like I'll never be able to get a new job in a new area because my interests get SO involved and then DROP SO FAST... I can't invest in new education just to be 'done' with it 3 months later.
I feel trapped. I was diagnosed as Bipolar II as well by my psychiatrist... but, I don't know if a lot of the symptoms I'm describing to him may just be stemming from OCD / anxiety.
Any thoughts on this would be appreciated.
Thanks!
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