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Originally Posted by justafriend306
I am sorry things are tough right now. You have raised a valid point. Yes, it seems so many fall through the cracks. Part of the problem though is that a lot of the time people are just not aware that one exists. How many of us put on a brave face and soldier on until it becomes that crisis situation. I myself hid things very well. Thank goodness I recognised myself that there was a problem and got help. But my point is that this doesn't always happen.
Bye the way, you seem to be angry lately and that has me concerned. I am glad though you are reaching out to us here. I am just wondering how you are coping these days and what kind(s) of outlets you have. Do you yourself have someone to turn to should you reach your own crisis point? I believe we should always have a plan for such a cese.
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It's hard to explain where I'm at right now. In a single day I can feel hypomanic and ready to take on the universe, then next thing I know I'm so down I feel like I can't take another breath without breaking, only to do this a few more times over. My sleep is erratic and detrimental to my fragile sanity. If it's not a flashback, it's a nightmare. Always waking up in a panic. My GAD is it's own beast. And there are the hallucinations and mild delusions. The frequent depersonalization episodes are their own form of interesting and the full dissociation every now and then is keeping me on my toes. Sprinkled on top is a fair amount of intermittent rage that comes out of nowhere. To top it off, I have a physical health concern that I don't even want to make an appointment for but will have to anyway. I have my fiance keeping an eye on me along with a close friend. My T is aware of my situation and is trying to guide me back off the ledge. The meds don't seem to be doing a damn thing except giving me a headache.
Where ever I am right now, it sucks. I'm just trying to hold onto some kind of sanity through writing. It's all I've got anymore.