Mona, that sounds intense and scary, the experience with ex-T and when trying to address/discuss it with new T. I'm glad new T backed away and provide you with some comfort and safety. It sounded like new T tried to take care of both your physical and mental needs of being in shock.

I have had moments of disassociation that sound similar but not exactly like what you describe. At one time, I felt like I was no longer connected to me or my memories and someone could have told me that x happened to me and I was so disconnected I would have believed them. It took me a few days to move away from that level of disconnection and about 10 days before I started feeling like myself. I felt very much in a daze. Sure I was going to work and doing life stuff. I described it to my T as it felt like I was blank and waiting for a new program to be installed. I kept imagining that this is what it feels like to be a robot in iRobot. I had the 3 laws and knew how to move, ect... but didn't know me or my personality.

So - it doesn't surprise me that you have felt in another world after this experience, they can shake the very fabric of who we are, who we think/feel we are (the woven neurological basis of what makes us us).

BTW - I have missed you here, I am glad to hear that you have been doing what you need to do for yourself. Take care, Mona!