Hey Starfish,
I understand the feeling that of living in a dark pit. It is really really hard to get out of that pit especially if you don't have a life line like a therapist. I am in the same position - i have no therapist....just a name on a waiting list.
Can i start by giving you a

??
I'm listening if you want to talk about anything...what you had for breakfast...what the weather is like where you live (personally here its pouring down....)...anything.