I have been diagnosed with Bipolar Dissorder and PTSD since my move back home. But when I was back east I was diagnosed with more to that list. What do I do to get the doctor to see that he isn't listening?!
Example:
Me: I am feeling happier than I have been in a while but the visions and voices are still there.
Dr: I am glad that you are feeling better. I think we can change your visits from every week to every other week now
What is that!? I tell the Dr that I'm not depressed at the moment but that I am still really disturbed and the Dr tells me that we are changing my appointments.
This is just recently... a while back I was talking to the Dr's at the state hospital after a 51/50 admit... they asked questions and I answered
Dr's: Why do you think you need to kill yourself
Me: To make them go away
Dr's: Who?
Me: The people talking to me and the visions I see
Dr's: What are they saying?
Me: That I'm better off doing as they say
Dr's: ah, so your hearing your thoughts as if someone were talking to you
Me: NO! They (point towards corner) are talking to me
Dr's: Who are they?
Me: The blood people
Dr's: why blood?
Me: Because they are covered in it and so are the walls and windows
Dr's: do they scare you?
Me: not here they don't.... but ....
Dr's: why not here?
Me: they don't know how to touch me here
Dr's: do you have family your staying with?
Me: yes... but I'm not safe there and they aren't safe when I am there.
Dr's: why?
Me: They (pointing) can get me there
Dr's: We think you should go home to your family and let them support you
Me: I don't feel safe out there!
Dr's: we'll have your release forms ready in a couple of minutes.
about 2 hours later I went into a major panic attact that another patient had to allert 6 Nurses to for them to even notice, and ended up with a scar on my hand from the ordeal. they gave me a pill and still sent me home when my mom got there to pick me up.
I have no job, shortly after I get one I tend to have something going on where I can't function anymore and loose my job or quit, but I need help that the medical professionals aren't giving to me.
How do I get the help I need? Things are worsening and it just seems that I am on a never ending downhill run
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