The doctors at the hospital actually talked to my mom and she told them what was going on. As for my sister... she has gone in with me more than any other... they aren't changing anything it seems... my family is so worried... and I can't keep putting this stress on my younger sister like I have been.

I am only 29 and feel like I have lived a lifetime of strain. I feel the need to push those that get to close away. (only people that haven't had that is my sister, and so far my new bf)

I am so happy that I have people close to me that support me... but I still have troubles seeing the need to keep going... no matter how much they love me and I love them... I am tired of the hurting