Buzzing, noise, nothing but noise
never quiet never
rustling, music, talking, grating
goes on for ever.....
please leave me alone, go
get out of my head
my space, the sound of my son
crunching even gettin in my face.
Peace please just give me peace
cant stand this noise always
Just need MY release.......
Everythng I always did for everyone
now it's my turn
give me understanding for once
for this I YEARN.
Tired of feeling guilty
FOR SOMETHING I NEVER DID
I never asked him to do those things
I HID............
Now I'm putting this pain onto everyone around me
cant deal with that
you'd ALL be better off without me
is where I'm at.
I'm just not strong enough for this
cant go back to masks
left in limbo, pergatory
to be extinguished is all I ask.

j